hey jupiter
alone at the ethel cain show
18 Feb, 2026
I am sitting alone at the Ethel Cain show, and I guess I'm making this a thing now? It is nice to have somthing to do with my hands while waiting for a show to start. Although I am a lot more comfortable than I was waiting for the Evanescence show aka there isn't a tall obnoxious dude standing behind me talking about his dick. Instead I have two sweet teens sitting to the left of me, and one of them is telling the other that they are going to start crying as soon as Ethel comes on stage. I have seen a lot of sweet teens so far, which I guess is to be expected, and I expect a lot of them are going to cry during this show. I'm not sure if I am going to cry tonight - I know in my last post that I said I was a two song crier, so I guess this is a chance to test that theory. I am wearing the t-shirt I bought at that Evanescence show, which feels like a nice, strong connecting thread.
Before heading into the theatre I decided to walk down to the beach and look at the ocean for a bit, because it felt like the right thing to do - the day had been so hot, and then it had rained a bit, and when I arrived the sun was setting behind the still half-full clouds, and it felt like the perfect atmosphere for an Ethel Cain show - hot, sticky, and steel grey. So I walked down to the beach, and when I got there counted three or four different groups of teens taking photos of each other against the backdrop of the overcast sea. It made me smile, and reminded me of the time my friends and I lined up for hours in front of festival hall to see panic! at the disco, and to pass the time we started taking pictures of each other on our pocket-sized digital cameras. And once that got boring, we took turns going for walks, taking pictures like the ones we'd seen posted on DeviantArt; the view from the bridge over the train tracks, and the old two story town houses from different angles. I can still see those photos we took, I remember them so much better than anything that happened at the Panic! at the Disco show.